The last few months of the year always pass so quickly for me. That could be because of the pile up of holidays beginning in October and not letting up until January. Sometime I feel there’s no time for peaceful … Continue reading
The darkness of this season feels like a continuous tug at my spirit. I straighten my back, lift my head and attempt to shake off the mood of depression that hovers over me. My children wonder why I want to sleep so much and stay inside. It’s such a change from the hustle and bustle of Spring, Summer and early Fall. But I persevere because they need their mama WHOLE.
I miss MY mama. I want her to come and make me soup and give me toasty wool socks and a flannel blanket. I want to curl up under her and just rest a little bit. But I straighten my back, lift my head and attempt to shake off the mood of depression that hovers over me. My children wonder why I don’t laugh so much anymore. I persevere because they need their mama whole. They need their mama happy.
Winter time is when I make a very concious effort to get out of the house with my children and visit family and friends. My first thoughts as I wake in the morning are “I want to go back to sleep, it’s too cold and dark to wake now.”
Perhaps in a former life I was a bear that hibernates and bypasses this dreary, useless season.
For now, in this life I am mama to two Winter loving children. I’m going to straighten my back, lift my head and shake off this mood. I’m going to curl the corners of my mouth into a smile and be WHOLE because they need their mama.